61ack4eart

One day, the world will know my name and my story. I'd die in the process.

People focus too much trying to see in the dark and not enough time embracing the light.

—61ack4eart

Another Text I Just Sent

“I’m glad you opened up a bit. I don’t know what’s wrong but all I needed to know was something’s wrong. I can’t take away the bad things but I can definitely shine some light on the better things. People focus too much trying to see in the dark and not enough time embracing the light.”

Fresh Start

You know what. I’m done. I’m done done done. No more fucking depression. No more pessimism. I need to learn to take my own advice and be happy. Homeless? So what, I’m alive right. It won’t change and it won’t change whether I’m happy or sad so I might as well be happy. Heartbroken? Lovesick? Lonely? I wish I knew the cure. But it’s no point chasing someone who won’t let you catch up. And when that day comes I’ll be ready. For now, I’m going to enjoy the jog. 

Let’s see how long this lasts. Fresh Start.

Today

You crossed my mind a lot today.

At least, I think it was you. The mask you wear wasn’t with you.

You were alive in my dream today.

Even in my fantasy you pushed me away.

You touched my heart today.

You were rather rough, but it was more than I’m used to.

You hurt me a lot today.

Other than all the pain, I guess I’m doing okay.

You didn’t talk to me at all today.

Nothing new, but still the thought of you corrodes my brain.

You talked to someone new today.

Nothing new, but still the thought of you corrodes my brain.

You kissed someone new today.

Nothing new, but still the thought of you corrodes my brain.

You made love with someone new today.

Nothing new, but still the thought of death is in my brain.

I found a bridge today.

I tried to burn it but instead I pushed myself off of it.

I took my life today.

Nothing new, but still you never talk so you never knew.

I’m Quoting The Text I Just Sent

There’s a whole different connection between friendship and relationship. Friends don’t play my heart strings at the glimpse of every smile. They don’t cuddle with me at night so I don’t have terrors in my sleep. Friends don’t make love to me at the end of the day and grasp the passion we shared. Friends don’t tell me they love me and miss me and mean it like love. Friends can numb the pain, or distract me from it when they’re next to me. But only love can keep me sane enough to feel human.

THIS CAT IS ASKING TO BE PETTED IT IS ACTUALLY ASKING THIS IS THE MOST POLITE CAT IN THE WORLD AND IT’S GOING TO KILL ME
THIS CAT IS ASKING TO BE PETTED IT IS ACTUALLY ASKING THIS IS THE MOST POLITE CAT IN THE WORLD AND IT’S GOING TO KILL ME

(Source: cineraria, via ripleynation)