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This is going to be a long post. Everything I’m going to emotionally type out has bottled up over the last couple days. Enjoy.
First off, guess what yesterday was? It was one of my schools graduation. Guess who showed up to it? No one. Tell me something, do you know how depressing it is to walk out of your graduation and have to see EVERY single classmate be surrounded by friends and family, then..you..have no one? Not a single “friend” stops you to say “WE DID IT!” or a single family member to hug you and tell you they’re proud of you? Tell me, do you know what it’s like?
Today, this might sound stupid but fuck it, was the band banquet. For those who don’t know, I’ve been in marching band for four years and today was basically the senior celebration. Especially this year I felt so important to the band, so..friended? And today was absolutely horrible, I was assumed I’d start a destiny..or something where I wouldn’t be forgotten. Too late. In the matter of four years of being friendly, outrageously outgoing, funny, and “friends” with everyone, I was deserving of a single picture in the “senior” slideshow. One. That’s my importance. Needless to say, I walked the fuck out. There’s more I could complain about, but I obviously don’t mean shit to waste my breath.
Now tomorrow, I turn 18. Woo hoo right? No. I fucking hate birthdays. Always have. This year it’ll be on Facebook so I’ll actually have people wish me a happy one unlike every year since I was 6 years old. I don’t want that. You know what I’ll go through tomorrow? Nothing. No calls from any relatives, no mom, no dad, no one. I’ll be me. I’ll cry for me. I’ll be a fucking lone most likely stupidly bitching about my 3 days that’re suppose to be unforgettable, cherish-able, joyous occasions. They definitely will be unforgettable.
Sorry for wasting your time, no one who read this.
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It’s been 3 months and you can still see the multiple scars on my wrist. When will they fully fade?
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